Real as it Gets

I sit here and think about something that I did last night and how I am at times I am the most native man that ever lived. I am so self centered that I at times I do not even consider that life is not just what I make it but it is what the whole of everything accumulates to, the grand sum of all things compiled.
I hurt you I saw it for the very first time in 18 years last night. I was also more open to you last night than I have ever been. You have manged to crush and destroy every wall I had to protect myself. It took a long time (18 years) to completely bring me to an open arms point of view. I am sorry and I will start from today forward to be a better man. You made me want to be the man I used to be. And that has not happened in the longest time. I can illusion so much, I have a enormous ability to love and also to fool myself. I have no illusions about what I am and I can be to you so I am not fooling myself at all. But still I want to be good at what I am.
Here's to the most wonderful friendship I have ever had!
 And now 6 months later I know that You are strong and can handle life. You never had it easy and I truly know how it feels to have one child and you to provide everything for! all alone!

Feeling's

Strange today is the first time, that I have had my feelings hurt in 45 days Nothing really big, but you can really hurt someones feelings with the way and tone that you respond to them. If you speak in a normal tone of voice at first then yo set the tone.
But if you yell and respond to someone harshly, then that person can go from being on top of the world, to depression in one sentence.