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Letter to God

Dear Father,
  Thank you for the many Blessings I received from you during your Birthday celebration. I Gave you all I had and still you gave me more. You gave me my Christmas wish father, thank you so much. It is just what I asked you for. That all my family and friends would safely make through the holiday season.
  I am so thankful that that person showed me about you so very many years ago. This year I turn 50 and I am as blessed as any one person could ask to be. I have seen so many friends go on to heaven ahead of me and still you allow me to linger here to fellowship with you daily.  I read your word and I see the messages. And daily it is that I seek you out and ask how was your day.
 When I say something like that Lord People raise their eyebrows and ask me questions. I just smile and nod and pray that they will really find you one day. And their eyes will be opened. That they will have the chance to be one of the sets of foot prints in the sand.
  Well father I will stop here now and till my next letter please Bless and keep my family, my friends an everyone in your grace if it be your will.
                                                                                    Sincerely Yours,
                                                                                  Your Faithful Servant,
                                                                                        Robin Ruffin

When

When I come home and your waiting for me, makes me feel fine. Summer breeze makes me feel receptive to your desires! Oh my I believe that there is an inter clock that makes us act as we do and that time changes the very essence and agenda of who we are. God said it was so we could procreate that we are alive! Do you believe that is true?


"There is a divine moment in our lives when we all become one. It's called procreation, and it is reborn, continually and forever."
Dirk Benedict

so make babies!

Joy + Happiness = Today

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
— Albert Einstein

Joy is a great feeling. Don't you agree. Happiness or Joy is always just ahead of you. I am engrossed in the illusion that Joy will find me today, that I will be consumed and surrounded by unsurpassed Joy. It is a glorious feeling internally, When one allows him or her self to be enveloped by anything good. Those positive vibrations elevate me to a higher plane. Systematically elevating any need for protagonist position. I still find myself always having to stay flat emotions in full check. It matters not the occurrence of events, just an ability to perform under tremendous pressure of any kind, at any time, wherever, who ever, how ever. These are skills I have obtained in recent years. I never had then before lately. I was quick to anger and could be antagonized in to a heated attitude rapidly. But as a singer once said so elegantly, and it is the same thing, it's 5 o'clock somewhere. I think that we should live our whole life that way. As if we had just got of work took off our tie, or let down our hair. It's time to be relaxed. See I'm happy already!
So in the words of Jimmy Buffet, "Work day passes like molasses in wintertime. so pour me something tall and strong, Make it a hurricane before I go insane"!

I was going to complain about how hot it is... then I realized that:
1.) it isn't 120 degrees;
2.) I'm not 5,700 miles from home;
3.) I'm not dressed in a full BDU uniform and helmet and carrying 70+ lbs.; and
4.) there is very little chance that anyone will shoot at me or that I might drive over a bomb in the road today!
Thanks to all who serve! Re-Post if you agree.

Read this to day made me think how lucky I am to be alive and loved by many. I don't even know if I did anything to deserve this love. I show love but these days I feel loved.
I am enthusiastic and I feel an immediacy of need to create something that is majestic and and springs up to life. I have so much I wanted to try in the field of art to carve marble, already have the tools. Wanted to Make sculpture from things lying around. Ultimately I guess I have started to restore my standing in society.
I have always been a recluse, as are most artist's. But I'm never alone. The select few who enter my world must accomplish gaining my trust and that's arduousness in even the tiniest way . I try to be excessively generous. Some times to the point of doing to much.
I have begun to realize that even a second is special, every moment is fleeting at best and all we can hope to do is to be aware and actually live within that very moment right then as it's happening. Not off some where, being philosophical about preference, or living in the past , or the future.
People with there "He said, she said" drama are so wasting the very air their breathing! Never take any thing for granted. When your life seems full of dissatisfaction try to remember when you did not want or need as much as you have accumulated or think you need now.
We all can remissness about a time when we still had youth and great potential. Does any one remmember when bean bag chairs were all you had to sit on. People have so imploded on themselves that I can't even accept, how someone could pay 10,000 dollars for a sofa.
But what do I know there are transitions that take one places! So I guess what I really what to say is that i hope all your transactions take you to happiness.
Been gone a few days will try to get back on track. Till tomorrow then.

Sunday

Since it's Sunday the Lords I will be back tomorrow. Remember God loves you!

Rants

"Call me what ever want just don't call me collect, cause I don't have many minutes on my phone. I guess you had to be there. (Ha Ha ) Do you remember the days of limited phone minutes I used to spend 100 dollars a week Things have changed so much since then. Now you can text, call and watch free brand new movies all for one low cost and at the same time. Get this on one phone, If you have reading glasses with.

What is love, do you know? Where do you find someone to care. Who the hell are you to not see. That there is a wonderful and glorious life simple and free. Take my heart, beat on it, chop it up, run over it with your truck, but handle with care. Cause I'm a survivor and there will be consequences.

So what are dreams really about? Hurt, pain and happiness no doubt. Can we chase our dreams away one day, and wish them back another? No such luck, can't you see that the dream we've lived outrages some. This dream has become reality and there's your proof.

When you wake then you'll see. That dreaming a dream is not to be taken for granted. For you or me. We dream our dreams from all we've seen. From one day to the next. Your dream was there to protect you. Through every step you have taken in your corrupt life your dream kept you safe in the dark times. Where you righteous when you dreamed? Did you even slow down to dream or were and are you still captive by that defeating margin of dissatisfaction which is you. Manipulated inside a philosophical determination to ultimately stop to dream. Still inside where no one can see do you serenade an accumulated pile of discarded dreams hoping to one day see them rise up and become reality. I suspect what is changing in our lives will demonstrate Happiness or dissatisfaction depending on each individuals on course and circumstance. But one thing that I know is we will dream because dreams are a part of a happy life.

Thinking

The Mystery of a lost love. And the fragments that leave a empty notion that there will be no return.

I sit here and try to think of back when I had no idea of what would happen in life. Now as I grow older, I have the glorious ability to sit back and see things from an appreciable unfolded point of view. I see God always has a plan and we are fitted in to that plan just right.
Overseeing all the events of a life lived in and out of the underworld, I begin with time and thought to see the cloud banks open and a new fresh enthusiasm profoundly awaken. As the artist I hold the key to create visual stimuli which in turn affects others. I am the artist. I hold a key few will ever even know exists. This melancholy ability to aspire higher that the artist uses. So the way I have started to see things is that I hold the brush and I paint not only the canvas, But peoples paths and there attitudes. Not always of course but always in a Godly fashion. I can paint a building very well thanks to my drafting background in both engineering and architectural drafting in college. I can paint flowers and bowls, bottles, and library's. Reproducing the real world is just a thing. Details come easy and all that to say. Lets just paint illusion and judgement are harder to paint. so painting people will be the only way. Now painting with my brain and a brush seems I'm able to render expressions that was never one of my strong points. Correspondingly when painting now i think of what this person coveys to me in the sittings and I try to express the feelings that they project on myself in each rendering.
More to come videos of the artist at work.
So with a cast set and the palette in my hand and believing this is to be a chapter that shines very brightly.

The falling Home

Snow falling all around town, I would go out with you and walk around,
                 But we both know I would just fall down.
                   Wish we could have had more time back when we cared less about our sins.
                 Instead to the future I go as you trudging thorugh deep deep snow.
                   Should you stumble or fall,
                 I'll lend a hand to you even trembling from fear,
                  Never mattering how near or how far, between us the gap is large so very far.
                 To bridge it would take Prussia's rulers army and more.
                  The glue is gone and no matter what we can never be together or totally apart.
                  Like broken pieces left lying on the floor, All that we hear is the sound of the glass shattering.
                  Exploding with tremendous effect, entering and imploding our minds.
                 Happiness abounds around and the bunny is hopping this weekend i think.
                  Yea so many people are troubled by the current affairs.
                 In my world i find so little worth my love, except the Father above.
                  I will say in closing that if thing were different where would I be.

                So I think i'll acutauly try for a change and we can see if they will remember my name!

                                                                                                        R. D. Ruffin
                                                                                                         Copyright 4/22/2011
                                                                                                                robinart40

Poem written 10/7/10

I saw a blue bird this morning. He lighted on a limb as i went to gather the paper. As I watched him he watched me. And there in those eyes, I believe I saw something to see. I saw that blue bird see me!
                                                                                                                              Robin D. Ruffin